The Island 30

The River of Thought

Thought flows like water seeking its path. When the mind becomes clear, the current strengthens. When the current strengthens, the truth rises to the surface.

Elon Musk must be blowing an O’ring watching Renate change her wardrobe so often from his gazillion Starlink satellite feeds. I do think CoPlot has at least partially returned Renate back to her old self. David, on the other hand, seems to be struggling finding a happy medium with his beard and graying hair. AI generated image by CoPlot as envisioned by the author.

The new bathroom hut stood half finished, its frame rising like a promise of comfort. The stone walkway gleamed faintly in the fading light as the sun slipped behind the trees and left the clearing in a soft blue glow. David had gone to gather more wood for the fire, leaving Renate alone beside the new addition.

She sat on the bench he had built months ago. The wood felt warm from the day’s sunshine. Her muscles ached from setting all the stones in the walkway. Yet her thoughts moved in restless circles.

The forest breathed around her. The air carried the scent of salt and leaves and the world felt grounded and real.

Her mind did not. She closed her eyes and let the evening settle over her.

A month since the fever dream. A month since the cave felt alive around me. I remember the warmth of the chamber, the pulse of the vine, the figure of memory standing before me. I remember the voice that carried the memory of centuries.

Yet the cave was silent. The walls were cold. The path was blocked. The moss on the stones that blocked the tunnel was ancient and undisturbed. The dust was untouched. There were no footprints. There was no chamber, no pool, no wall of constellations.

So what did I see. What did I hear. What moved through me that night.

She opened her eyes. The clearing looked unchanged. The sea whispered beyond the trees.

Dreams speak in symbols. David said that. Dreams reveal what the mind carries when the body is weak. Fever can open strange doors. Fever can shape visions that feel like truth.

She pressed her palm to her arm. The skin felt cool. The vine beneath it felt quiet.

If the dream was only fever, why does the memory feel so clear. Why do I still feel the warmth of the chamber when I close my eyes. Why do I still hear the voice and still see the figure raising its hand to me like a greeting.

She leaned forward, elbows on her knees.

The cave was sealed. The rocks were old. The moss was thick. The dust was untouched. That is the truth my eyes saw. Yet the dream carries its own truth. The mind does not invent symbols without reason. The island may not have spoken, yet something inside me did.

She looked toward the forest. The trees stood in quiet rows, dark against the sky.

The dream showed me a pattern. It showed me a procession of lives. It showed me a thread that moved through time. It showed me a figure shaped from memory. It showed me a spiral that matched the vine on my arm. These images came from somewhere. They came from a place inside me that I do not fully understand.

She drew a slow breath.

Perhaps the cave did not speak. Perhaps the island did not reveal its secrets. Perhaps the fever opened a door inside my own mind. Perhaps the dream was a message from a deeper part of myself. A part that seeks meaning, connection and continuity.

The sky darkened. The first stars appeared.

I wanted the island to speak. I wanted the cave to open. I wanted the world to reveal its hidden life. I wanted to feel chosen. I wanted to feel part of something ancient and vast.

She closed her eyes again.

Maybe the dream was only a dream. Yet dreams carry truth in their own way. They show the shape of our longing. They show the shape of our fear. They show the shape of our desire to belong to something larger than ourselves.

She heard David’s footsteps returning through the brush.
His presence steadied her.

The cave is silent. The dream remains. I must learn to live with both.

She lifted her head as David stepped into the clearing.
The firelight caught his face. He smiled at her with quiet warmth.

Renate felt the weight inside her ease, just a little.

The night settled around them.
The island receded into the dark. Renate let her thoughts drift like embers rising from the fire. The fire had burned down to a quiet bed of embers. The clearing lay in a soft darkness. The new bathroom frame stood like a shadow against the trees. Renate sat on the bench, arms wrapped loosely around herself, watching the last sparks drift upward.

David stepped into the circle of firelight with an armful of driftwood. He set it down and studied her face before speaking.

“You have been quiet for a long time.”

Renate lifted her eyes to him.
“I was thinking.”

“I could tell.”

He sat beside her. The bench creaked under their combined weight. The night air felt cool against their skin.

For a moment they listened to the forest. A single insect called from the underbrush. The sea murmured beyond the trees.

David turned to her. “What is moving through your mind.”

Renate drew a slow breath. “I keep returning to the dream. I keep trying to understand what it meant. I know the cave was sealed. I know the chamber was never there. Yet the dream feels alive inside me.”

David nodded. “Dreams can feel alive. They can feel more real than waking.”

Renate looked down at her scuffed and dirty boots. Her fingers curled slightly, as if holding something fragile.

“I saw a figure,” she said. “It spoke to me. It felt ancient. It felt patient. It felt like it had waited for me. I can still hear its voice when I close my eyes.”

David leaned forward, elbows on his knees.
“Do you believe it was real.”

Renate hesitated.
The fire cracked softly.

“I do not know. Part of me wants to believe it. Part of me fears that belief. The fever was strong. Fever can shape visions. Fever can create entire worlds. Yet the dream carried a clarity that does not fade.”

David watched her carefully. “You are searching for meaning.”

Renate nodded. “Yes. I want to understand why the dream came to me. I want to understand why it felt so complete. I want to understand why it still feels close.”

David reached out and touched her hand.
His voice softened. “Meaning does not always come from the world outside us. Sometimes it rises from within. Sometimes the mind speaks in images when words are not enough.”

Renate closed her eyes. The warmth of his hand steadied her.

“I keep seeing the spiral. The one on the wall. The one on my arm. The one in the water. It follows me. It feels like a message. I cannot tell if it is a message from the island or a message from myself.”

David squeezed her hand gently. “Both can be true.”

Renate opened her eyes. The firelight reflected in them like distant stars.

“I feel foolish,” she whispered. “I wanted the island to speak. I wanted the world to reveal its hidden secrets. I wanted to feel part of something ancient.”

David shook his head. “There is nothing foolish in longing. There is nothing foolish in seeking connection. You lived through a fever that shook your mind. You saw images that carried weight. You are trying to understand them. That is human.”

Renate looked toward the forest. The trees stood silent and dark.

“I keep wondering if the dream was trying to tell me something about myself,” she said. “Something I have ignored. Something I have carried without knowing.”

David followed her gaze. “What do you think it was telling you.”

Renate’s voice grew quiet. “That I am searching for continuity. That I want to feel part of a larger story. That I want to believe my life is connected to something beyond my own choices.”

David turned to her fully. “You are connected. You are connected to me. You are connected to this place. You are connected to the work we do each day. You do not need a chamber of light to prove that.”

Renate felt her throat tighten. She looked down at the fire.

“I know. Yet the dream felt like a doorway. I keep wanting to step through it again.”

David placed his arm around her shoulders. She leaned into him slowly, as if testing the strength of the moment.

“The dream will stay with you,” he said. “It will change its meaning as you change. That is what dreams do. They are not meant to be solved. They are meant to be carried.”

Renate rested her head against him. The night felt softer. The fire glowed with a steady warmth.

“I want to let it go. I want to release the weight of it.”

“You will,” David said. “In your own time.”

They sat together in the quiet. The forest breathed around them. The sea whispered its endless rhythm.

Renate closed her eyes. The dream flickered once more behind them. The figure of memory raised its hand. The spiral glowed.
The warmth returned. Then it faded. She opened her eyes again.
The firelight steadied her. David’s presence grounded her.

The night held them both in a tight bond. The glow of the dying embers in David’s eyes told her that David truly loved her and she held him tighter.

51 responses to “The Island 30”

  1. “We are such stuff as dreams are made on” said Prospero in Shakespeare’s The Tempest a story that was also set on an island.
    Renate seems to be struggling to come to terms with herself, her dreams and the island.
    As for David, he may have to start using Just For Men Grecian hair formula and Oil of Olay in an effort to look younger.

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    1. The struggle to accept paradise at face value instead of the centuries of stories born of deep wishes and lofty dreams can be a struggle at first. For instance, no one can explain how sand keeps getting into everyone’s underwear. That was never in the script. David needs to worry less about things being plumb, level, and square and focus on a testosterone friendly diet and moisturizing. Eventually, they will work it all out and the life long gratitude party will begin.

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      1. How sand keeps getting into everyone’s underwear 🩲 was a recurring problem in all those beach and surf movies they made back in the 1960s.

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        1. Growing up in Florida on the beach, I experienced the miracle of sand being able to sneak past all barriers and fill my swim suit with sand and the ocassional hermit crab. Those were frantic days in the surf.

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          1. Especially with a hermit crab 🦀 clinging to your tentacles… I mean… testicles.

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            1. Humans have a natural crab dance encoded in the DNA. When the crab clamps down, the dance begins. It’s accompanied by wild throat singing and arm flinging. It’s quite the show.

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              1. Very much enjoyed by the spectators on the beach.
                Not so much the dancer.

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                1. Yes, everyone applauds and laughs their ass off and then suddenly there are hundreds of social media posts of the incident all across the world.

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    2. And a nice reference to Shakespeare. I’ve always been amazed at how much insight into the human mind and condition Shakespeare had and it seems relevant even today.

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      1. Yes, Shakespeare seems to have written for all time.

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        1. I had the very first complete works of Shakespeare printed in America and my sister ended up with the books somehow and let them rot under her house in a box. I’ve mourned that loss ever since.

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          1. Sisters are a pain in the ass when it comes to stuff like that.
            The rarest and probably most valuable book in my dad’s collection of books was an 1873 1st edition of Mark Twain’s The Gilded Age which was personally autographed by Mark Twain.
            That book was lost with numerous other treasures in the house when my sister and I were embroiled in a law suit over his house.
            I had forgotten all about that book until you mentioned the very first complete works of Shakespeare in America that you once owned just now.

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            1. I love old books and it traumatizes me to lose them to the carelessness of others. However, I’ve learned that the great libraries of all scholars are lost to time when the owner passes. Unless, the books are safely transported to a museum or reputable library with archival capabilities.

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              1. Yes, I think that’s what should be done when great scholars die.
                Transport the books to museums or libraries with archival capabilities.

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                1. It’s a terrible thing to let a private library go into some dumpster or just decay inside the abandoned estate.

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  2. Renate seems to be pretty messed up since arriving at the island. The idea was to live in harmony and peace away from the madding crowd , now something has affected her negatively and she can’t seem to let it go. In order to live a joyful life as was the plan she has to make peace with her surroundings and begin to live the life she David dreamed of.
    A most intriguing chapter , Dan.

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    1. I love your insights into this story, Rene . We want to tell her to throw out the past and slam down a pear wine and let paradise happen. I too am one of those deep over thinkers. Everything is layer upon layer of my past, present, and future. I want to only think about now and experience every lovely thing in my field of view, but those darn head elves sometimes need to just chill and watch the live stream. It has been said that the moment of our enlightenment can be the hardest thing we’ve ever done or experienced. Renate will transition through the letting go and embrace Paradise. David will be at her side ready to do the heavy lifting and the gentle listening. He loves her and there is no burden too great for him to carry.

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  3. Has he tried a pint of pear wine and a smoke 🚬? Drastic times …. She has to lighten up or its back to the Sad Cafe.
    I remember staggering out of those beach with my bathing suit weighing an extra ten pounds. If I was lucky there wouldn’t be a jellyfish in there.

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    1. Waaaa haaaa haaaa! I forgot about those darn jelly fish. That was worse than a hermit crab. I think David is going to distract Renate with a glamorous Bathroom cabana. A Good hot shower can work wonders on the psyche, especially when followed up with a little pear wine and an island fresh smoke. The sailboat stores are empty now, so it’s time to get busy with the garden and some fishing. Goats milk and cheese is good for them. I mean, dang! There in paradise, it’s time to get busy with the living large.

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      1. They’ve been there awhile and no paradise yet. Ok, we’ll see how the cabana works out.

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        1. Isn’t it interesting how they landed on an island that provides everything through natural means and they struggle with it. Although, they have done an excellent job of establishing a place to live and a kiln to make necessary bowls, cups, and storage jugs. They have goats, an orchard, and a rock shelter full of tools, seeds, and other useful things. What’s missing is the acceptance of what nature provides and the change in lifestyle. These things are not easy until one fully commits. Before it was adventure and they planned well, but now they have to give up everything that was normal to them and accept a new normal. The best way is to establish routine and add exploration of new things. That is what is coming next.

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          1. I bit of frolicking on the beach would be nice

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            1. Beach frolicking is definitely a main plot in the very soon Part II. Renate experiences a rejuvenating gift from the island and David is over the moon. Luau without restrictions is about to be the focus. I would never accuse R & D of being hedonistic, but luau is where all the social constraints go out the window on the island and fun and frolick is a three day event. I think it should be a daily ritual like sun salutation yoga at sunrise. Naked of course, to avoid that sandy shorts problem. Even tho they are no longer supervised, they must be practical. 😁🧘🏻‍♂️🧘🏼‍♀️

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              1. Yay ! Some frolicking is in the future! Going to need some Yoga Mats. 🧘‍♀️🧘 Namaste. 🙏

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                1. And no doubt the island will provide everything they need for sand free yoga mats. 😎😎

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                  1. love this island, it’s the best 🏝️😎😎

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                    1. I think this island is setting the bar pretty high. The Hawaiian islands are going to lose some of their luster after this.

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                    2. Too crowded there. Too many volcanoes. 🌋

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                    3. Crowded with volcanoes is a stampede just waiting to happen. I prefer the less noticed places that don’t threaten to turn me to ash and glass.

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                    4. I’m watching a docu on islands of the South Pacific. So many uninhabited islands out there. Lots of very strange wildlife.

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                    5. Some of them seem so mysterious, I expect there is an ancient cave on some of them with artifacts just waiting for someone brave enough to explore.

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                    6. The docu included New Guinea and the Solomon Islands, Fiji, and many more. Fiji could be a real paradise. Of course the weather can be a huge factor in the South Pacific. 🌀 but much worse , how do you feel about Fiji? 🩴🩴🐍🐢🐠🦜🌴

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                    7. Fiji was a real paradise to the soldiers and sailors who stopped there. I read where the 18th century sailors often refused to leave once they got there. I think if you could keep the island true to its nature and not let modernity invade with its desire for misery through political chicanery and ideological absurdity. Fiji might be an island paradise you could share with friends and remain happily ever after. Hopefully all the cannibals in the surrounding islands are now on a fish and vegetable diet.

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                    8. Cannibals? Let’s pass on Fiji… in Papua New Guinea there’s a tribe who uses razor blades or bamboo to cut crocodile looking skin scarring into young men. It’s a coming of age ritual , I’m sure you’ve heard of this. That’s one place I want to steer clear of. 🐊

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                    9. That’s another thing about islands and isolated life. Humans can develop some very strange quirks. Now that beautification is a multi-billion dollar international business led my the South Korean K-Pop industry, why would we want to add scarification to our beauty routine? And, I avoid cannibals at all costs. I don’t trust anybody that sees me as their next meal. I truly feel in the depth of my heart that R & D are going to up the game of island living to set. New standard of living for clothing optional demigod/goddess aesthetics.

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                    10. They have many superstitions and in the case of the “ scarring” ritual , it is believed that the similar crocodile skin markings will protect them from the massive amount of crocodiles that threatened their lives on land and in water.
                      A more people oriented island is preferred.
                      Hoping Renate will turn that frown upside down and join the island fun.

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                    11. Today the latest chapter comes out and Renate is opening up about what her experience means to her, then David dives right into the center of the issue and puts it on the table for all of us to see. The results are good but what they must decide to do to live there requires a 100% committment not a list of do and don’ts. Hard work is fun when your heart is in it. I certainly wouldn’t want to share my space with things that think I’m fun to eat.

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  4. What a splendid opening statement, Daniel.  Also, new bathroom would absolutely be a source of comfort.   Yes… the inner search for continuity – I relate to that.  Thanks for another lovely episode.  Hugs.

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    1. Thank you Teagan. This story will hopefully straighten itself out soon and the fun in the sun deserted islands are famous for will take center stage. First, they have to find some grass suitable for clothing. 😅

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      1. Oh no — I was talking about myself re continuity.

        LOL, or grass for smoking. LOL.

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        1. Waaa haaa haaaa! Hopefully everyone that attends the luau will enjoy the hula competition.

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  5. You make sense of senseless dreams that are not senseless, but might be.

    I used to visit these friends that I really liked. I always had a great time, in their warm & generous companionship. They lived sort of close… a walking distance, when in the mood.

    Usually I would call, and see if it was a good time to visit, but on occasion, I would pop in.

    Out for a walk one day, I was passing heir street, and decided to pop in. It was a lovely street with well cared for old homes, trees and gardens. There was a school near them, across the street … and a park.

    Everything was there that day, except their house. The homes on either side, the school, the park, the garden, familiar cars… but trheir house was not there.

    When I got home, I went to phone them, but their number was not in my book…. where it always was.

    SO, I figure it was a dream that I had for several years, before I discovered it was a dream.

    I get Renate’s haunting about her dream!

    Yes, it will fade with time, but it won’t go away.

    Thanks Dan!

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    1. Wow! That is an amazing story, Resa. I have had some very real waking dreams that I realized were dreams when I woke up and regretted that they weren’t real. I also had a continuing dream that lasted about 10 years. It was my own private soap opera. It’s amazing what our minds can do to fill in the time. I call them my head elves and they are independent of my will. In the many stories Rene and I have cowritten about Renate and David, David was always seeking physical adventures that sometimes didn’t go as planned and Renate was the one whose inner life was where their life together was most beautiful. Together they are representative of life as it truly is and as it was defined by ancient beliefs. I call it the yin and yang of everything. Freud called it anima and animus. We think of species as male and female and we recognize the roles in life each play; however, in each of us is both and it must be in balance. Balance is not static but in constant flux and so each person’s life is defined by the battle for balance. Renate is out of balance in her inner world and the fever dream was the door opening for her to see those things she must rebalance. Memory, connection, and purpose propel us toward our balance within and with others. David has accepted that his entire life led him to the island. Renate must accept that her entire life before the island is gone and she must let it go.

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      1. Yes… the Ida and Pingala that snake through our bodies and energies.

        I was just thinking how we are like the 3 Muskateers, only 2… All for one and one for all.
        Letting go of past life. (lives)
        Dream on! ꧁❦꧂

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        1. Ah, I can’t physically do yoga, although I’ve wanted to for decades because of the measurable benefits. To think this was worked out to perfection before humans exited the Bronze Age is amazing and says a lot about what we lost in the interim centuries. I have a friend who is a traditional Yogi and practices the Ayurvedic lifestyle and she has tried so hard to help me but I’m not good material to work with. Still, I try and I definitely believe in the practical benefits of the Vedic philosophy. Relating our lives to things like Ida and Pingala energy flow and purpose is a very practical way of explaining our duality and the importance of keeping it balanced.

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          1. I agree!

            You can achieve many benefits doing yoga sitting in a chair.
            I used to teach yoga, and was introduced to the Ida and Pingala when I was studying Tantric Yoga with my – at that at time boyfriend.

            The Bronze Age… What age are we in now?

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            1. I use certain positions to unfreeze my back every morning so I can walk to the coffee maker. It definitely works on many levels but unfortunately, I need a lot of time to be able to do the very basics.

              Ah, the current era. We are in the Holocene epoch of the Quarternary period in the Cenozoic era if one is looking for fossils or geologic strata. However, I like the proposed Anthropocene Era, which marks the massive human impact on ecosystems and climate. According to earth scientists this is the last era of humans and many species as all the data points to a mass extinction peaking in 2050. This would be an undeniable event except for the fact that few people trusts the scientists and it’s anybody’s guess what happens next. There is no doubt, recovering from the global orange blight will take time. 🌎🌱

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  6. I second Holly’s suggestion of pear wine… (Or Spanish wine, even better…)

    I’ll pause now, and return to next chapters another day…

    (Glad Renate looks back like herself… 👍🏻)

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    1. Thank you for hanging in there. I bet they can find an old stash of Spanish wine in one of the many caves on the island. They haven’t yet explored very far.

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